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I feel like I'm staying in a room which has no windows and a locked door. All my days are always planned or same with other days. I'm always tired and annoyed. But I don't want to show that to my people. I always try to smile and make other people laugh or make them happy. People would describe me like "Jerry's Funny!" "He likes to smile :D" "He makes others laugh" "I like his stupidity :D" or etc.. but in fact that is just my front mask. some of my smiles or laughters are FAKE.. I don't know why I make them. Once my father said this. "Jerry , try to pretend that you are happy or agree with something even though you are not happy or not satisfied. And try to pretend that you are not satisfied when you are satisfied." Of course at first, I didn't fully get what he was saying, but now, fully understand that ! Soo as a result, everyone around me is happy :D...  I tend to say yes even if I'm not satisfied, I say yes for other's sake. Well try it! It really helps you !! HAHAHA  Yeah in other word Self-Control :D  It's the first time that I'm telling my truth in my Blogger, well I don't know the exact reason.. Probably today, I mean now at this momoent I'm not in a good mood. Well you will see me smiling tomorrow again, well you can try guessing if my smile is Fake or Not :( ?? :)